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Badass Id and I
went to see a film
while in college
about a young man
who kept killing himself
in order to get a rise
out of his mother

soon after
(our first and last trip together)
I got religion and
severed my connection
to my family

so that I could get high
on God
without psychedelics

so that I could dig a grave for myself
and, discarding my body
be free

but what actually happened was
I hit gold

for much like the boy in the movie
who, in the end, renounced death
for banjo-picking in a white suit
with suspenders

I joined the Lithium club
and came to give up my aversion
to happiness

my horizon
now 360 degrees
one step at a time