Monday, September 20, 2021

grotto of St. Dymphna


(actually likenesses show her pretty happy; she is matron saint of the mentally ill...)

 

weeds neglected

dirt smeared on concrete molding

smudges of blood mixed in

no one can guess their source

the question lost to the failing faith

of the previous century

 

the image, hunched, recoiling

as if from a gaggle of marauding geese

as if life itself had become a burden

air and the sun, curses, crosses

 

on her face

a fleck of an impish grin

breaking through an awful grimace

an ounce of grace

rained on her perpetually-breaking heart

Saturday, September 4, 2021

on Exercise: Finding the Feeling, by Pema Chodron


the feeling of

being in Mom's hospital room

as I draw and write

sitting by the side of her bed

 

Ani Pema instructs,

Bring up a memory

What does it feel like?

 

like ice water

a pool rich with grief

hovering below my heart

above my belly

 

I look up, distracted

a single cloud peers out

over the top of the building across the street

 

I am not unhappy

I am just sad