in limbo (travel poem)

nothing much to say
in limbo
in between cities
in between home
away
in between states
in between space and earth
in between tomorrow and today
in between sorrow and expectancy
in between a sense of loss
and a sense of me
in between utter collapse
and the best of me
in between books
off the ground a foot
nowhere to lay my head
little sleep last night
craving bed
craving bread
losing my mind
losing my father
why bother
an uncanny calm
and illusion of self-mastery
an unconscious dread
and acknowledged disaster meet